Cinta

O.k., So today was the first day back to school. That dosen’t sound so bad right? Well let me just tell you it was a day filled with anxiety for me. My son is now in 6th grade … SIXTH GRADE. I can not belive it, where did the time go? So I am not only dealing with that but he started a brand new school to boot. I was having flashbacks of the first day of Kindergarten again.
Let me say that was a very traumatic experience for me. I was not ready for him to be a big boy then and I am not ready now. I know, you might be saying that I have had six years of first days already I should be a pro at this by now. You would be right and wrong. I didn’t that much of a problem with it the other five years but today triggered the emotions I had on his very first day of school.
I could tell that he was trying to put on a brave front for me cause he knows I worry about how he feels. But I could sense that he was a little anxious… he is at a new school where he knows only one person who happens to be in 8th grade so the only time he gets to see his friend is before and after school. He left all of his friends at the old school and his class size is more than doubled. It was like seeing him in kindergarten all over again, on the playground just him all alone while all the other kids played together. It broke my heart then and it breaks my heart now.
I am very glad that he likes his teacher… its the kids he can not stand. It was so cute when I asked him how his day went he told me ” I have never heard so much cussing in my life, I don’t think I have ever heard the word for the female dog in heat used so much.” I knew there were going to be draw backs to leaving a private christian school, I hope that I did the right thing. I know that he is strong enough to stick to his beliefs.

I love him to the moon and back.

Well I have not updated in forever but there has been a lot happening, not just with the surrogate thing. Lets start with that, the surrogate thing, Well we did do a transfer and put in one embryo. I had to wait the never ending two weeks then the blood test came around…. the numbers came back high…. Yeah!! So two days later I go back to make sure the number goes up…. Read the rest of this entry »

So much has happened since I lasted blogged. I now have a 13 year old boy living with us. I have had a career change.. once again. Then there is the whole surrogate thing that I am doing. And I am still struggling with school. So where do I began… Read the rest of this entry »

Well yesterday morning we woke up to no hot water. I started thinking … hmm did I forget to pay the gas bill… Read the rest of this entry »

After my doctor’s appointment we (husband, son, and me) went to DISNEYLAND… well California Adventure. We decided to go there due to the huge accident on the 5 freeway… they had it close going towards my dad’s …where we were going to go. So we got there and Read the rest of this entry »

Today is my baby’s (well he is not a baby anymore) birthday…. He is now 9 years old. I can not believe that it has really been that long ago since I had him. I am sad because I know that soon he will be leaving me to find his own way in life. I feels like just yesterday I was taking him to his first day of Kindergarten. I love him soooooo (there is not enough so’s to express it) much. He makes me laugh everyday at the new things he does. For instance… Read the rest of this entry »

My husband is a line waitin’ fool. Read the rest of this entry »

Take me out to the ball game….. well that is what I did. I took my husband, son, and step-son to the Angels game on Saturday. We had good parking and seats thanks to my company. Read the rest of this entry »

O.k. so I am at my sisters house and found a computer that I could use to update the funny stuff that has been happening. WARNING…. may not be funny to all of you. Now that, that is out of the way I can start. Let me start with yesterday afternoon; Yesterday I was at work and my co-work recieved so flowers (from the snake not the tiger) Read the rest of this entry »